sephora & alice in wonderland.

Yesterday was really interesting~
it didnt rain, like i expected, so that made me pretty happy. :)
since i only had 3 periods, school day was pretty relaxing ;D

the first time i went to sephora without going into Macy's, haha
looking at all the make up was really cool
i didnt know there were so many different kinds of eyeliner, eyeshadow, lipgloss, etc

the dry shampoo was pretty cool, since it worked :D
i'm thinking of buying it in the future, since my hair is oily. D:

the hatter in alice in wonderland looked scary ;x
huge & scary green eyes. :O
the way the white queen moved annoyed me. XD
why cant she walk like a normal person? T___T

I GOT A 99 ON MY TRIG TEST! :D
my highest score so far >:D
so now my average is currently an 85.
i need to get all 90's in the future so that it can be raised to at least a 90 :3

why, why me.

argh.
i thought today was an okay day

then i went to play handball with julia and joanne after school.
i sucked
worse than my day 1. how is that possible? ):

arghjklasdfg.

i got 91.22 on my report card.
my 2nd average that's 90+ in high school. :)
but it doesnt seem to have the same happy affect as the first time. :/

gahsdfghjkl.

I'm still sick. fuckinghjklasdfg. D:

I have so much hw today and yet all i feel like doing is going to sleep. ):

Fog is pretty sexy.

THERE WAS FOG THIS MORNING! :D
at least, where i live, there was ;O
i think fog is pretty cool, besides all the humidity crap ):
it feels like you're moving through clouds, hehehe.

so i was pretty happy that it wasn't raining when i left the house, but then it started raining right when i got off the bus. argh D;
today isn't as bad as other rainy days though :)
i feel content~ hahaa

parizman was saying how, when kids say they like school, it could be a sign that they have family problems.
i think that's pretty true.
that's how i felt back then.
when my parents would yell at each other nonstop.
i would do anything to get away from home. :/
and then they got divorced. yay? :D

i watched "barefoot gen" in global today. it's this anime, which is made from a manga written buy a Japanese person who survived the atomic bomb in WWII.
the dying part of it all is horrible and ugly to watch.

English is boring these days;
and this is what i write about....
You can change your clothes
You can change your hair
You can change your way of life
But you can never ever change the past
You can never change the pain you've gone through
You can never change the way your heart beats.

Did you ever count all the things you had?

I was having pessimistic thoughts today...again...
:/
but previously, I've thought of ways to make myself feel better
like...things I should be thankful for :]

so here's a list :3

I'm thankful for.....

1.not being too short or too tall
2.being exceptional in academics.
3.getting into tech
4.having friends (like rachel, hahaa)
5.not having a disability
6.having no allergies
7.not being obese ;O
8.not being blind
9.having an awesome mom :D
10.having an awesome aunt :3
11.having a laptop
12.not being deformed
13.having a nice home
14.having yummy food
15.having clothes
16.being born in the U.S.A (peter chau suggested this, hahaa)

hehehe

I played handball for the first time today! :D
I feel fine though; no broken bones, or hands, or feet. :O

Julia said i would feel frustrated, but i didnt~ :3

I THINK ITS FUN! :D

It feels nice to play a sport...if u can consider it one ;D

I LOVE NICE WEATHER!
altho its supposed to rain mon and tue. D; ARGHADNKSD

I'm sick. sore throat. SO DRY AND IRRITATING. D:

I need new clothes >3<

trying to plan my spring break ;D

I've decided to make it half hw, half social life. HEHEHHE

I'm confused.
I don't like myself at all.
why do people even bother with me.

I feel like i'm deceiving people
when they show any sign of affection towards me

what the hell do they see in me?

I dont think i'm worth their time

i'm somehow waiting for someone to tell me
that they hate me as much as i hate myself.
so that i can cry my guts out,
with a better reason than self hatred.

:)

This week had been pretty nice so far
with a few depressing and annoying aspects.

I talked to Hannah today! :D
long time since I've seen her. ><
I missed her a lot
i feel happy after talking to her :3

i need new earphones
mine got stuck between the chair and the wall of the train~
so i just left it on the train... T___T

I LOVE THE NICE WARM WEATHERRRR. MAKES ME HAPPY =D

Hoping that destiny will miraculously lead me to somewhere nice.

1. ssr
2. media
3. bio
4. college prep

I have 0.0000007% chance of getting into ssr, BUT IM PUTTING IT FIRST ANYWAY. :D

Media is my highest ranking ><

Science is my 2nd highest average. [not including chinese] :S

College prep is there so i don't get put into any major below this point. :D



5.industrial design
6.chem
7.bio med
8.law and society
9.arhitecture
10.math
11.environmental science
12.electro
13.comp science
14.civil engineering
15.aerospace

Majors.D:

AGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAGHA.
Majors suck. seriously.
or I suck. for not having any interests.
for not being particularly good at.....anything...

Majors I've thought about:
media
ssr
bio
chem
ias

Order of.....preferred-ness? [I'm actually not INTERESTED in any of them]
1.bio
2.ssr [psychology! and stuff...]
3.ias [I'm scared of the pressure of ap classes D: ]
4.media [just cause.]
5.chem [science....]

in these majors, there are things that attract me.
but even MORE things that make me want to NOT pick them. D:
decisions, decisions. DX

Life has been okay, I guess.
but it could be better...?