Monday, February 15, 2010

A feeling of emptiness.

I haven't started any of my hw yet.
But I shall make myself start....soon!........ :D

I haven't seen Connie in ages! ):

I made a formspring, but it seems.....boring. :x

I haven't been on aim in a longggg while.
actually...HALF the time I AM on aim.....just invisible. ._.
cuz...I'm not in the mood to talk to people these days. D:

I think I'm turning more and more pessimistic.
Half the time I feel dead at school.
I don't know if it's because of boredom or lack of energy.
I feel like an old woman growing tired of old age. T_T
It's like a whole 180 degree turn compared to freshman year.
REMEMBER WHEN I USED TO BE REALLY ENERGETIC? I often wonder what the hell happened to all that energy. D:

My grades aren't doing so well. D:
I don't pay attention in chem anymore, even though Ms.Hall changed our seats and i sit in the front again...I keep zoning out. D:
I already failed a global pop quiz........and that adds on to how much i suck at global already.
english is so boring now, since i have a new student teacher. plus, this one gives wayyy more hw. D:< I DON'T LIKE HER. AT ALL. D:<
Tanzman has been absent for a couple of days. we're basically just practicing drawing iso and shading.

I went to see my guidance cousnelor for the first time last week. (because Vionna went to see hers. >< )
I asked my guidance counselor about majors, and she was no help at all. -_-
she asked me what my best subject was, and i said chinese.....
then she asked me what my next best subject was, and i said chem.
then she told me to go onliine and search "career inventory".......-_-
and THEN she wanted me to sign up for nhs. D:
but i have ZERO hours...... T_T

so i'm still clueless as to what major i want to be in. D:

I like Parizman's idea of a happy box.
i just need shtuff to put in it now.....

The few bright sides?:
-This is the first year that i get to keep SOME of my chinese new year money! :D
although i only got to keep $120, it's better than getting to keep nothing. :D (but i have this feeling that my mom's going to take it away from me later....D: )

-I'm doing better in trig! :D (even though i screwed up the 2nd test already)

2 comments:

Connie said...

I miss you too dear :D

Sociology seems to fit you.

I hope I can save my chinese money as well... I end up spending it all by the end of the year though; oh, how will I pay for college?! :O

Luminous Fish said...

poor baby .
misssss youuuuu D:

GUIDANCE COUNSELORS ( well most of them ..) ARE USELESS PIECES OF FAT ROLLS .
i am not even kidding -_-
majors ? THEY PROLLY DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MANY MAJORS THERE ARE >_>

you really should sign up for nhs and join fundraising so i wont be lonely :3

i am 90% sure that i am applying for ssr first ..
since tarot cards said that i will be overwhelmed with work if i apply for ias -_-""""
and i agree with connie .

the chinese horoscope said that you wont be as busy this week ~
and for romance it was like youre thinking too much so that you would isolate yourself